#GodsGotMe

God has been good to me. I made it to a new chapter, my new year, my new stage in life! When we are filled with God’s strength there is nothing that can stand in our way! Hallelujah.

Today I am swiftly turning the page to that old chapter, in fact, that entire book and moving onwards and upwards, with forgiveness and hope in abundance.

David pretty much summed that last chapter in Psalm 139:13-16 NIV when he said,

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”

My biggest lesson this year has been learning how to LOVE. Not anyone else, but how to love myself so much that I can step away from things designed to cause me stress, anguish or pain.

My trials in the last year of my life have been the most trying to date but God propped me up and made sure that they did not break me. There was no other way to make it to the other side than through the tough times and I am overjoyed to have overcome it all.I am a better woman for it.

I have learnt how to protect my peace, protect my heart, protect my mind, protect my wellbeing, protect my vicinity…for there are many lost souls that will incessantly try to create drama in my life. I have learnt however that not everyone knows how to understand, help, support, cheer on or hope for success for another person. I have these qualities and although I had been conditioned to think that they needed to be dulled down, with the help of therapy, I have now come to realise, they are the most important quirks I possess. I can only continue to spread love positively to everyone I meet.

I step into thirty-fly knowing that I now have a formula for identifying things that aren’t good for me. I know how to see the wood from the trees, separate the wheat from the chaff. I can no longer be held back from God’s purpose. The honesty with which I step into this new year is unlike any other.

I feel free, free from deceit, free from manipulation, free from fear and most importantly free from chaos.

Yellow you all know is my favourite colour, but it is also the colour for mental health awareness. Wearing it today is especially special because mine was thoroughly tested. From anxiety, to hurt, to betrayal, to heartbreak, to rejection, you name it, I felt it.

My support system I can only describe using the following quote by Ella Risbridger: