Yellow?! Is anyone there?

It has been an absolute eternity since I wrote a post so I won't be surprised if you've all left 😆. Today, August 5th is my half birthday. I've always said I wanted to mark the day and today my wish finally came true. This date has been tarred by so many unhappy memories in the past, so it was wonderful to have that script rewritten today.

Yes, 40 came and went and so much unravelled just after my milestone birthday. I cannot say how grateful I am for all the things that I have overcome during this time. Days following my return from my wonderful trip to Mauritius via Dubai, I was hit with a plethora of things which have now reignited my passion to pursue my purpose once more. I must admit, I have a number of fears, but in the words of the fave struggle song We Shall Overcome.

Hiding my light under a bushel doesn't achieve anything. There is so much creativity within me that I need to let out. I feel stifled with this repressed ideas. One thing's for sure, I won't pursue anything if I do nothing. As a God-fearing woman, what do I fear? Really what? Analysis-paralysis is a real thing guys. This pause I have taken was unintentional at first and then it became necessary. The way I have played cerebral tetris with organising all the information I want to send out into the world is just phenomenal. I keep saying I will start and then I stop. I must make a commitment to continue because at the end of the day, what would I be known for? What would my legacy be? I cannot take today for granted.

A lot happened in the last 6 months for me. Those that know me knew to check in, they know the struggles that I encounter on a daily basis. They know what has been going on. There are so many people however that are just superficial friends and family. They come, they see, they move on and assume I’m okay because I posted a picture smiling. The truth is not everyone knows the reality of what is happening or is intuitive enough to cop the underlying message. I am grateful for where I am today and for the right support system that I have cultivated. People rich in self-awareness, in consideration, full of encouragement, empathetic people who don't add more to me mentally in the midst of the storm. Life lately has been nothing short of trials, but one thing I know is God has sent his angels to be a conduit to pull me through every single cloud. HE knows my heart and I know that HE will compensate me fully for the years that I have lost.

Dress: ASOS (from 4 or 5 years prior);

Shoes & Earrings: Zara;

Other Jewellery: Aunty Dunni R.I.P. purchased by my Daddy R.I.P.

The cake I'm having today...

Hope you've liked the few snaps from my birthday celebration on the evening of February 5th in Mauritius. I was barefoot and bubbly at the very end of the night. Met some great people who made my stay there amazing, namely, Ramesh, who represented James; Ashwini, my photographer and Riccardo who serenaded me nicely on the night . Such beautiful souls. I cannot wait to see you all again. 🙏🏾

Special thank you to the co-author of today's script for my prayers, the endless checkins and insurmountable support. I'm am so grateful for all you do, TLR ❤️‍🔥.

xo èsjé